Meditation is something that I’ve been interested in for a while. It makes life and people in my life easier to deal with. Let me be clear, it’s not that they’re acting differently towards me, I just don’t care so much about their opinion of me so naturally I don’t stress out by trying to please them when I know no matter how hard I’d try, I wouldn’t be able to. Reading the assigned books helped me realize that all people are hypocrites and most don’t know who the heck they are. These aren’t new concepts, when I read the 25 days book it’s like a look inside my own mind.
Everything that the book has said so far, I already know, consider, and act upon. But it’s still fun to think about for me because it makes me feel better about myself. If you haven’t noticed, I’ve got a problem with pride. I think I’m pretty awesome. And if you know me at all, you’ll know that what I mean by that isn’t that I think I’m better, I just don’t dislike who I am in the least. So don’t get so offended.
If I love anything in life though, it’s other people. I get no higher pleasure from things than when I am helping someone or doing something for a group of people. I don’t think that I can do anything/everything; I just know that I am good at a lot of things and I like learning new things to be good at to boot. Meditation has helped nearly every aspect of my life slow down a bit.
It gives me a time each day to think of myself, and the world that I live in, and what I am doing in it. It allows me to think more clearly throughout the day. Meditation can be a challenge but it has gotten much easier. Instead of keeping myself entirely open to everyone and everything, I’ve learned to control that part of myself. I’m open-minded as ever, I just don’t trust everyone at the drop of a hat.
Meditation has allowed me to become more decisive about any action that I take. I find that I’m making more time for the things that I used to do just for the heck of it. It has been so long since I’ve been able to actually enjoy any task. I forgot what it was like to be whimsical. These are the reasons that justify my need to keep mediating for the rest of my life.